Why everyone is like leaving me alone?

A day where I totally want perish into thin air.

A day that I want to leave everything and everyone alone and just perish all alone.

Why do I feel that people are leaving me one by one, day by day.

I wonder if there's any way to perish me or not? I'm always a loner, in past, in present and in future.

If I perish everyone has a lighten their burden, cause I'm a quite a burden to those who were around me. If I'm not a burden, why does everyone has to leave me alone when I need them for awhile?

Do I have a choice to make them stay with me forever? No, cause when I need them, they will never bother me. In some case, some would just hurt me and turn away just to move on.

I really need someone to be by my side and know me well.

Cause now even my well known friend doesn't even bother me anymore.

She don't even reply my message or answer my call.

Am I really that annoying?

I guess I'm really annoying to everyone.

I doesn't fit to be human, am I right? A useless animal who behave like human.

What a day

I guess no one wants to go out with me to watch movie. I guess I'm just a person who is meant to be lonely forever. I don't know what to do, I don't want to go watch movie alone...

It'll be funny when I'm the only one who is watching movie. Such a loner....

Or am I just a something else that are meant to be the last one, an extra person?

Why almost everyone don't seems to need me much than the others?

Or is it that my life wants me to do everything alone?

Why just a simple outing can't be granted?

My life is meaningless without anyone to go out with me and play or watch movie.

I always in my house is because there's no one wants to go out with me.

A loner always stuck in the house just doing their own things or just do nothing.

Am I this type of person who is a busy person or a loner person?

I'm just in between busy and loner. I just want to keep myself busy cause it keeps me active.

No one knows what is my lifestyle everyday. And I'm getting sick of being lonely.

It just like someone forbids you to go out and get freedom.

I want to have fun, I want someone to go out with me and I don't mind to do window shopping.

But really, no one has try to ask me out unless the group I'm helping has an outing to go.

Right now I wish that there's someone who can go out with me during Friday and weekends.

Can anyone just ask me out for a movie now?

So bored

These days I'm quite bored though. There's nothing much for me to do and whenever I'm at home, I just use the computer only. Sometimes I just do school project to occupy my time.

Is this world  really bored when you are just the only child in the family?

Sometimes I just wonder why there isn't any fun when you're the only child.

 How I wish that someone is always here to make me happy all the time without fail. Cause I'm really lonely with or without my parents at home. Is like every time you just sit in front of computer and see random website.

I wish that there's someone who can really make make happy though. I only can feel nothing almost any where. If I had a sibling or a pet, I can play with them but I'm the only child and my parents do not let me buy a pet.

It's really a very boring life being a only child. I wonder is there anyone who can really make me smile and laugh or just telling some lame jokes.