November

This month seems to be busy to me.

First week, 8-10 November is Anime Festival Asia. I'm helping my friends on the weekends and Friday I have school event. So I bought the  tickets for the weekends after I finish my school event.

It was a fun day for 9 and 10 November with my friends and we are broked after the event due to butler cafe and I bought some stuffs from some of the booths.

Second weekend, Saturday is actually my birthday but I went to my friend's cafe. I help her mother to do some stuff and relax for sometime. For dinner I went out with my mother to celebrate my birthday as my father needs to go to work.

Second weekend, Sunday I'm helping for my friend's shoot. And we joke around when they are taking a break and before we had our dinner. After I reach home, I play MapleStory with my other friend.

Third week Saturday I'm helping my friend for a shoot. Photo shoot again. I hope the photo shoot is fun. Can't wait for the shoot cause I can't wait to joke around with them again.

Sunday will be playing MapleStory the whole day again. I think we will be doing some training and talk some shit in through the skype.

And last week of November ends at Saturday. And it's another event again. I'm helping my friend to do some organization. I hope everything will go smoothly and a fun day. But I not sure if the event is small or not. But still, I can still see my friends again.

Outing this weekend

Saturday and Sunday I have been hanging out with my friends and make new friends too even though Sunday there is only 3 of us in the cafe. We had fun together and do some weird stuffs and say some random stuffs. Went for beach swimming, play 'truth or dare' game ended up doing 'dare or double dare' game. The game is a bit boring and yet funny cause of the kids made me laughed a lot. And some of the dare games.

Well, the cafe's mushroom soup is nice. Saturday I drank the mushroom soup like 3-4 bowls of mushroom soup. And Sunday I drank another bowl of mushroom soup again. The cheese toast and garlic toast is nice too. I should try more baked rice and spaghetti in the cafe.

Darn I miss the fun... I want to have more beach swimming too. The Changi Village nearest beach, the waves are quite fun. Sometimes it flips me hahahas. There's one wave rolled me. I have not prepare for the waves cause I don't know there is one coming. So it rolled me and I just keep trying to get myself up and balance. Well, it made me rolled a few times and my friends is being 'washed' when she is sitting in the shallow shore. Well, Changi beach is not as salty as Sentosa beach. (Sorry I accidentally tasted the sea water ><) But still, I hope there's more outing and the outing will be on beach again. Clean beach of course. Cause the sea will be more cleaner and the sand is has lesser litter too.

Costumes for AFA?

Noooooo...... T^T

My costume for AFA probably might make it cause I still have not order my wig and have not my finish my dress. I'm still sewing on my apron which is kind of done I guess? Cause the apron completion is 65% only. How the heck am I suppose to done my apron by this week where this Friday, Saturday and Sunday evening I have to go out? I know Sunday evening I can bring my costume to my friend's house and do while waiting for him to give me task to do for his armor.

And today is Thursday... And I do not wish to waste more time on doing some other stuffs already. I try to extend my completion for my apron to next week due to the days left and I need more white cloth for my apron. I also need to buy a dark coloured blue cloth for my dress while shopping for a white cloth. Probably next week I can get the cloth. And try to finish my dress as soon as possible after I have done my apron. My apron is kind of hard to do that's why I try to do it first.

For my dress, I need someone to help me measure my measurements. Cause I measure myself would be very difficult and my back measurements I have to ask someone to measure it for me. I have to see my friend is free or not after her leadership training this week. And I need to get the cloth around that time also. Cause is like, with cloth and no measurements I can't measure the cloth. And with measurements without cloth, what's the use of having the measurements?

I just hope everything will make it in time before 8 November if can. Cause I think a few of my friends are looking forward for my costume? If not I guess I will try to make it for the next event next year. The next event will held in January. I need to see where it held too, if it's under the sun I will not cos it cause this character has long sleeves. Unless my skin will be like one of the photo shoot last year. Hahas, my friends were sweating like pig in the photo shoot cause it's in a garden. And for me is like I don't feel anything... Just feel the water vapour of my sweat.

I find it amusing cause usually when I went out under the hot sun I will tend to sweat a lot but I didn't sweat a lot that time.

Well, I have to get back to my costume already. Cause I still have a lot of cloth to sew and cut. I really hope to make it on time now. See you guys in AFA at Suntec City on 9 and 10 November~

October

Haiz... This month seems a bit packed to me. Last week I totally forgot this week's outing and next week photo shoot. But still, is good to hang out and mixed around with others. But still, this month my 'break time' is on the last week on this month. Cause last week there is a small event (and the person did not update the forum I guess) and it's kind of fun and a bit tired cause me and my friend is laughing and laughing like a mad person. We have laughed so hard till our stomach has ached. And this makes me tired after I have reached home.

After my 'break time' there will be another event called AFA (Anime Festival Asia). Well, I guess my laziness will come soon. But I hope my laziness will come after 3rd week of November. Cause next month is like this month. Is kind of filled up almost all my Saturdays like this month.

But still, I wonder how long will this friendship last....

Pre-event(AFA)

Well, I'm looking forward for the next event that will be held in November. Can't wait to help my friends. And I try to finish my costume in time. Cause one of my friend told me if possible, do it on this upcoming event. And my other friend said 'Don't worry, just do what is your interest. Not just cosplay and by helping them.' Cause I really love to help them alot. And I also love cosplaying.

Is like when you see them in costume already very interesting and happy. And by helping them is like a fun thing to me. I just can't explain that specific but it's like making myself more fun, exciting, enjoying, get to know a bit more specific about the character's character. Even though sometimes helping them is a bit tough sometimes, but it's worth it. See how the costume to be worn and to help them wear some props that they can't do themselves like wearing the wings and assemble some armors on them. But overall you see their hard work and your hard work. Sometimes without helpers is kind of hard for them to do it themselves.

Well, the 1st reason is meeting my friends of course. I'm helping them on the week ends and chat with them during the event. Is nice to help them and be with them because they are fun to interact with. Can't wait to joke with them during our next meet up or in the event.

2nd reason that I'm looking forward for AFA is the butler and maid cafe. The butlers are kind of cute, and some are handsome. And the maid is pretty. Even though there were some embarrassed times and mixed feeling in a cafe with my friends, but I will try to go. Cause there's 2 cafe that were serves by my friend due to some reasons. But this time is my second time going to a butler and maid cafe is served by some other butler and maid.

3rd reason is probably see the booths inside the event hall. Cause sometimes is like, in this event the booth owners sells this things and the next event they won't be coming or even when they come they will be selling some other stuffs. I know there's one booth is always selling the same things. The props that i'm referring. Well, I wonder this upcoming event what will the booths be selling.

I hope this upcoming event will be super fun. Can't wait to see my friends again to talk some rubbish and funny stuff during the event and visiting the cafe. And hope that there won't be another weird things happen in AFA.

It seems like I'm already very excited for AFA.

My friends cosplays

You know, I kind of liking a few of my friend's cosplays their cosplays is either quite handsome or pretty. You know, sometimes I just could be like them but I know this wouldn't happen.

But still, is nice to know them and they are fun to chat with even though we don't chat much during conventions. But what I wished the most is to hang out together again and have fun. I just miss the fun of hanging out with them.

Thanks to them I won't be that lonely anymore. If not I don't know what to do and no one to hang out during the event convention. And I wish that this fun will never end even though sometimes I'm quite emotional alone and wanting to leave them secretly but when ever I share to them, they will comfort me.

Birthdays.

Birthdays.... What is birthday? Why am I sad when my friend said he is celebrating his friend's birthday? I did some research in my memory. I would be frank.... No one celebrated my birthday except my parents which they have stopped celebrating my birthday after my secondary school. And kindergarden is so called celebrating with classmates and teachers.

Except them.... no one really celebrate my birthday exceopt for one of my secondary school friend who exchange our present for our advance birthday for secondary 3 or 4 I think. And the rest of my birthday is spending time in my room resting....

This year I guess this year I will be spending with myself at home inside my room during my birthday again. Cause I don't think this year my friends will be celebrating my birthday cause I feel that they are not that close to me.

I have been admiring people who got their friends celebrating birthdays with them while I am celebrating alone everytime at home.

What my thinking of my friendship with friends is, they treat me as a normal friend or a good friend. Close friend I don't think so. Cause close friends most of the time will ask you out around your birthday date.

I guess I'm pretty sensitive to this word already. Birthday means alone to me. When I'm alone, I tends to get abit emotional. This might make me cry during the night cause I rather get more emotional at night than day.

I guess I shouldn't had ask him a question which result me getting all worked out. I'm still quite sad and angry for myself due to some reasons.

I wish I could change myself permanently but I always ended up the old me, and I eventually gave up changing myself already. I'm not used to be talkative, fun person, out-going person and a cheerful me. Now I suppose to get myself stuck at home doing nothing already.

I hate myself again, trying to leave my friends behind cause I am not that important than their friends that they usually hang out with. I'm just a useless thrash to them compare to their friends.

I bought this upon myself so therefore I shall step back myself and vanish behind them while they have fun with their friends. So that they will forget my existance in this world. And I will be more happier to live on with myself. And I will not make any mistakes in my friendship with them anymore.

But still, I want to thanks them for passing my life. And I will make a move to leave first and not regretting anything I guess. I really have fun with you guys during the convention and outings. Hope you guys have fun.

Routines @.@

I not sure if I'm weird or funny. Sometimes is like, I feel like going out but really don't know where to go and I don't want to go out alone. Whenever there's events for me to go out I will be like 'Can I don't go?' or 'Suddenly I don't feel like going' or maybe 'I don't know how to go there'.

Hehes I know it's like so weird... Want to go out but there's no people to go out with me, or I don't ask people or else I will be like being very lazy to go out when there's things going on.

But still, I hope that this coming Saturday can be fun for me though. Cause I will be going to somewhere that I have not been before alone in the afternoon and at night will be going out with friends to have our dinner.

I'm looking forward to this coming Saturday but I night look forward to next Friday. Cause next Friday is my class outing at ECP. And I still haven't check how to go due to I'm really lazy. And not sure if I am able to go there alone or not.

I always don't trust myself on going to some strange place or the place that I don't usually go. Cause I will easily get lost and I doesn't wish to get lost. That;'s why I more prefer to go out with friends so that I won't get lost, and if I go to the place more often, the direction might carved into my memory.

Friendship

Well, I have been missing the days I spend time with my friends. Even though I have been spending time with my friends I know this year. But I don't know if this friendship going to last how long. I really hope that my friends would always be with me and hang out together.

It is a painful way and time if my friends doesn't want to go out with me after I have help them with the events and photo shoots. Is like making new friends, then become a stranger again. I really wish to make more friends and be friends forever, I know my character is like I want to make more friends but don't know how to start a topic and how to chat. I wish there's alot of topic to chat with you guys and hang out more.

I wish that this friendship would last longer than just 1 year or so. I want to be friends with you till old or maybe forever if there is a forever. I not sure... But some of my friends that I used to chat, I don't really chat with them. Maybe this is my problem but still, I regretted it. And I guess I already forgotten some of them. Now I really want to cherish my current friends.

I hope they could cherish our friendship too. And hope to hang out with you guys when you have time.

I wonder...

I really have been wondering why some of my friends didn't want to chat with me. Is it that I am over talkative? Or am I annoying to you guys? Cause right now I already try my best to know you guys better but still, I felt that you guys didn't want to get close to me. A feeling like we are friends yet like strangers to each other.

What have I done wrong? Can you give me advice to change myself? Or maybe... What is the point that I didn't interest you as a friend? I have been asking myself and maybe hating myself if I did something wrong to you. I wish to understand more...

For me, I don't know what I am now... I don't understand what is humans are thinking. It is making me feel like I'm not even a human though. Well, I guess for now I'm abit confuse by people these days. To make more friends or not to make more friends.

15 sept - coscom

Today is coscom. The event is quite small though. But still manage to have fun with my friends. But still, I wonder, do I make mistakes today? I got a feeling tat I make a mistake today after I reach home though.

As in I told someone something weird. I not sure if its weird but I got a feeling it is weird. I want to change myself. Trying my best to blend in more in this community.

But why the more I try to blend in, the situation got more awkward. I don't want to be awkward in this community even though I am trying to blend in.

Well, I just hope that I can really make friends and don't get awkward with them. Even though I think I might make a trouble with some of the people.

You know, sometimes I really want to say sorry to them but I can't really say it in front of them. I just hope they understand and forgive me.

One of the person I may want to say sorry is the ruby in today's event. I didn't mean to say the things I said in the previous event. Because sometimes I just couldn't think properly sometimes. I don't ask for forgiveness but I hope you understand how I feel right now. I am kind of abit sorry to say those words to you.

I'm kind of lonely right now

Everyday at home is kind of lonely. Cause sometimes it's also hard to find friends and chat. Cause most of them are either working or studying. Haiz...

But still, currently I'm trying to change my character though. Mostly is my personality cause I find myself kind of irritating though. I wonder my friends find I'm irritating or not.

Hope that my friends can be by my side without leaving me. I really need them cause if they leave I really don't know what to do anymore.

Tomorrow don't feel like going school.

Tomorrow there's only one lesson which is PE. Cause the lesson after PE is canceled....

And there's only one lesson which makes me very lazy to go to school. Is like you spend 4 hours of your day to travel to school and travel back just for only 2 hour lesson. Can I just skip PE lesson and slack at home? That means I have 4 off days for school since currently my timetable said tat Friday I don't have school.

Can someone tell me to go or not to go to the lesson? Cause firstly attendance is some sort important. Secondly I want to sleep more though. >w< Haiz....

You know what? I still can't forget the cafe experience with my friends. I not sure that this memory carved into my memory will be fading or not. Cause sometimes things carved in my memory easily faded away just for a few months or few years. If not it faded in weeks time. I really hope that this memory will be carved inside my memory forever. Cause it's really a wonderful experience.

Theme Cafe

Well, today is the theme cafe. Today is kind of awesome, fun, interesting, awkward and embarrassing day though. ><

Well, when me and my friend reached the theme cafe entrance, we were awkward because we don't really know what to do. So there's a entrance guard(I think) was checking if we had our tickets for the theme cafe and I showed him the envelope.

So we went inside and awkward-ly  walked inside and there was a maid lead us the way for the queue, and the next maid who is heroine from Amnesia needs to see the ticket so she will lead us to the right theme cafe. There were crayon shin-chan, doraemon, hello kitty, chopper/ one piece, rilakkuma, pikachu/ pokemon and maid and butler cafe. So I show her our ticket and will lead us to our seats for Maid and Butler theme cafe. When we got seated down, the maid get us our meals. Before our meals, maids/butlers will cast a spell to our meal before we eat, so that our meal can be more delicious and wonderful.

So after awhile a butler who pop out of no where with a high pitch voice(cause he had some helium) shocked me and told me some Japanese language. I was stunned for awhile though. ><

After sometimes one of the butlers came and ask how was our meal. And I replied it was nice. Cause the chicken omelette rice is really nice and I like their services.

The interesting part to me is that it is the first time for me to experience butlers helping us to make the DIY candy for us. It is also interesting and fun to interact with butlers and chat with them. ^^ It is really a pleasure to have fun with them and talk to them. Even though they are my friends and work as butlers, I really have fun to just hang with them even though they are working. And there's another embarrassing part is to let the butler see how I eat my meal so unglam. xD Cause my friend wants to have a some sort of fair challenge meal eating see who finish our meal first. My friend said no cheating on eating such a big mouthful of omelette rice, and the butler looked at me and smile abit. /embarrassed.

Anyway, it seems to be nice to learn and make the DIY candy, and it's abit embarrassing to let them feed us. But it's also a nice experience to let butlers to feed us cause it's a rare opportunity to have them to feed us. The candy is sweet and some sour candy rocks in the look-alike mashy mallow. And when he feed my friend with the candy it was really funny cause she is embarrassed to be feed by butlers and she waited for me to be feed and she can swallow the candy. ><

When the butler feed me, I was too awkward and quickly just eat and sit back down. Then I didn't know there was some candy on my thumb and he told me there was some candy on my thumb. He try to wipe off the candy off my thumb and I was too embarrassed to let him wipe my thumb so I pulled back hand. >< I'm really sorry when he tried to help me. But overall I love to be with them because it was really fun to be with them.

And after my meals and candies, Chopper the One Piece butler came to chat with me for awhile while my friend is in the rest room. Thanks for chatting with me even though you are working in the theme cafe. ^^ It's really cute and pretty with the two pony tails added by yourself. It's ok if you don't remember my name cause we barely talk though. >< Sorry, and also sorry that I keep forgetting you at first too. Cause that time I still don't remember your name too.

Sorry to be awkward and has some little mistakes I make during the cafe but I really hope that you enjoy working in the theme cafe and the main thing is to have fun. I really look forward to go to the cafe again and hope that I could improve my characteristics more. And to look forward to have fun with you guys. I want to thanks you guys for making me enjoy the food, service and entertainment not just butlers and customers, but as friends too.

I just can't help myself thanking you guys even though I thanks you guys just once only. Cause without you guys, today I won't be having so much fun and have a memorable cafe and such a wonderful friends I have. I more likely know you guys don't stalk my blogspot but I really appreciate you guys for today, as friends to have fun and chat more. Probably play some games or do some fun things.

By the way, the two butlers serving me is Sebastian Michaelis from Black Butler (Kuroshitsuji) and Ikki from Amnesia. And thanks to the Chopper from One piece chatting with me. ^^ Hope the butlers, maids, chopper and the rest of the workers had fun today. And have a great time. I hope to see you guys next time if there's another theme cafe or just a cafe only. I really looking forward to see you guys again. ^^ Ja~

Costume stuffs Nyaaaaa (Meow~~~)

Haiz... My costume is still in progress. I just started only not even 25% done. >< I need to be motivated to sew. If not I'll leave my things and just ignore it till I am motivated again. And I also haven't order my wig for this cos too. There's lots of stuff to do for me. >< I wonder who can motivate me to continue doing my costume before mid of next year?

Well, I don't wish to post it here cause it's kind of embarrassing to post it online. But I hope to cosplay next year. But I just don't know when can I do it, cause the theme of my costume is more to maid/classroom type I guess. And these days I try to costest, I'm improving my makeup skill but it still doesn't cover up much of my face pimples and stuff. I need to improve more and ask around to improve my makeup skills or watch youtube videos for tutorials.

Well, for now I will keep my costumes a secret. Wait till the time comes and I will post it here if my accuracy of my costume has improve and my make up skills has improve. For now I won't be posting and thanks for understanding me.

First Wednesday after term break...

I can't wait for this weekend... I don't know why I can't wait for this weekend. But still, I hope to get my laptop back by today so i can play Maplestory. Cause my friend is using my laptop for her homework. =/ I kind of miss my laptop now...

Hope I can back my laptop by today so probably I can play Maplestory after I got back my laptop. If not I will be watching anime.

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Do you know I want to go back to the holidays and have fun with my friends? School days now is kind of boring to me for the theory portion. Can't use computer during theory lesson, and there's nothing to do except listening to teacher talking. I wonder when will they make theory more interesting so that it can be absorb the theory into my mind.

I wonder tomorrow's PE is in which place already. cause Every term our PE place is in different location. Previously is in Indoor Stadium. But still, I hope to finish study ITE fast and go to Polytechnic. PE is always very torturing to me. =/

Hope Friday will come fast. Cause currently I do not have any lesson on Friday. So I can do my stuffs and all. Hope everything comes and goes well too, so there will not have any troubles doing it.

Yesterday is my school reopen day. April intake term break just finish..... Time goes so fast and I still want to enjoy the times during Cosfest. I still in the holiday mood and school just reopen after Cosfest. T_T

But it's okay, I will see my friends some time in the events in future. Looking forward to have dinner with them if they are free after the event. I starting to look forward for more events and more joy of cosplayers, photographers and helpers bond. Every day it just get more interesting and more fun to me. ^^

Next event is in August. Can't wait to go for the next event event though the next is normal event. The next big event is on September. But still, I not too sure if I'm going to the August and September event cause I have exams on September.

So I hope to see you guys around someday~

Theme Cafe

I will be going to the Maid and Butler cafe in the theme cafe this coming weekend. It seems to be interesting for a little me to explore on.

Well, in this theme cafe, there's still some more cafe not just only Maid and Butler cafe. There is Hello Kitty, One piece and more...

Well, if those who don't know maid and butler, maid and butler is servers in uniform. Girls are the maids and the guys are the butlers. Well, I'm looking forward for their services, fun and probably food? >< I would like to experience their services and their food , if can I also would like to chat with them or play a minor game with them. Because previously I went to a small Maid and Butler cafe and they entertain us by playing 'Scissors, Paper, Stone' in Japanese style I think.

Hmmm..... If you want to know my experience in the Maid and Butler cafe, I will post another post in here after a few days time since today is Tuesday.

Cosfest

One of the cosplay event called Cosfest VII for this year (2013) is quite fun for me. Meeting friends and have fun chatting. I really enjoy this event and I hope I can meet them again the next event so that we can have fun chatting and playing together and  probably eating dinner together.
I want to thanks my friends to be with me and have fun together. And my guild mates from Maple Story SEA holding a chalet on evening of Sunday the last day of Cosfest VII. I had fun on Saterday and Sunday and will try to keep it in my memories so that I will remember how fun is this year's Cosfest is.
And now I hope that my friends can hang out together and have fun not just this year's Cosfest only.
I love my friends and I love how we hang out together. Hope the fun don't just end here, and continue every year, not just the events only. Even if we hang out together like outings will be fun too! I will cherish every seconds whenever we hang out together. ^^ Thanks for everything and joy of cosplay and non-cosplay stuffs. I would like to hang out with you guys more than just events and talk about random stuffs and probably some awkward stuffs? But if i cause any trouble in future please forgive me. ><