November

This month seems to be busy to me.

First week, 8-10 November is Anime Festival Asia. I'm helping my friends on the weekends and Friday I have school event. So I bought the  tickets for the weekends after I finish my school event.

It was a fun day for 9 and 10 November with my friends and we are broked after the event due to butler cafe and I bought some stuffs from some of the booths.

Second weekend, Saturday is actually my birthday but I went to my friend's cafe. I help her mother to do some stuff and relax for sometime. For dinner I went out with my mother to celebrate my birthday as my father needs to go to work.

Second weekend, Sunday I'm helping for my friend's shoot. And we joke around when they are taking a break and before we had our dinner. After I reach home, I play MapleStory with my other friend.

Third week Saturday I'm helping my friend for a shoot. Photo shoot again. I hope the photo shoot is fun. Can't wait for the shoot cause I can't wait to joke around with them again.

Sunday will be playing MapleStory the whole day again. I think we will be doing some training and talk some shit in through the skype.

And last week of November ends at Saturday. And it's another event again. I'm helping my friend to do some organization. I hope everything will go smoothly and a fun day. But I not sure if the event is small or not. But still, I can still see my friends again.

Outing this weekend

Saturday and Sunday I have been hanging out with my friends and make new friends too even though Sunday there is only 3 of us in the cafe. We had fun together and do some weird stuffs and say some random stuffs. Went for beach swimming, play 'truth or dare' game ended up doing 'dare or double dare' game. The game is a bit boring and yet funny cause of the kids made me laughed a lot. And some of the dare games.

Well, the cafe's mushroom soup is nice. Saturday I drank the mushroom soup like 3-4 bowls of mushroom soup. And Sunday I drank another bowl of mushroom soup again. The cheese toast and garlic toast is nice too. I should try more baked rice and spaghetti in the cafe.

Darn I miss the fun... I want to have more beach swimming too. The Changi Village nearest beach, the waves are quite fun. Sometimes it flips me hahahas. There's one wave rolled me. I have not prepare for the waves cause I don't know there is one coming. So it rolled me and I just keep trying to get myself up and balance. Well, it made me rolled a few times and my friends is being 'washed' when she is sitting in the shallow shore. Well, Changi beach is not as salty as Sentosa beach. (Sorry I accidentally tasted the sea water ><) But still, I hope there's more outing and the outing will be on beach again. Clean beach of course. Cause the sea will be more cleaner and the sand is has lesser litter too.

Costumes for AFA?

Noooooo...... T^T

My costume for AFA probably might make it cause I still have not order my wig and have not my finish my dress. I'm still sewing on my apron which is kind of done I guess? Cause the apron completion is 65% only. How the heck am I suppose to done my apron by this week where this Friday, Saturday and Sunday evening I have to go out? I know Sunday evening I can bring my costume to my friend's house and do while waiting for him to give me task to do for his armor.

And today is Thursday... And I do not wish to waste more time on doing some other stuffs already. I try to extend my completion for my apron to next week due to the days left and I need more white cloth for my apron. I also need to buy a dark coloured blue cloth for my dress while shopping for a white cloth. Probably next week I can get the cloth. And try to finish my dress as soon as possible after I have done my apron. My apron is kind of hard to do that's why I try to do it first.

For my dress, I need someone to help me measure my measurements. Cause I measure myself would be very difficult and my back measurements I have to ask someone to measure it for me. I have to see my friend is free or not after her leadership training this week. And I need to get the cloth around that time also. Cause is like, with cloth and no measurements I can't measure the cloth. And with measurements without cloth, what's the use of having the measurements?

I just hope everything will make it in time before 8 November if can. Cause I think a few of my friends are looking forward for my costume? If not I guess I will try to make it for the next event next year. The next event will held in January. I need to see where it held too, if it's under the sun I will not cos it cause this character has long sleeves. Unless my skin will be like one of the photo shoot last year. Hahas, my friends were sweating like pig in the photo shoot cause it's in a garden. And for me is like I don't feel anything... Just feel the water vapour of my sweat.

I find it amusing cause usually when I went out under the hot sun I will tend to sweat a lot but I didn't sweat a lot that time.

Well, I have to get back to my costume already. Cause I still have a lot of cloth to sew and cut. I really hope to make it on time now. See you guys in AFA at Suntec City on 9 and 10 November~

October

Haiz... This month seems a bit packed to me. Last week I totally forgot this week's outing and next week photo shoot. But still, is good to hang out and mixed around with others. But still, this month my 'break time' is on the last week on this month. Cause last week there is a small event (and the person did not update the forum I guess) and it's kind of fun and a bit tired cause me and my friend is laughing and laughing like a mad person. We have laughed so hard till our stomach has ached. And this makes me tired after I have reached home.

After my 'break time' there will be another event called AFA (Anime Festival Asia). Well, I guess my laziness will come soon. But I hope my laziness will come after 3rd week of November. Cause next month is like this month. Is kind of filled up almost all my Saturdays like this month.

But still, I wonder how long will this friendship last....

Pre-event(AFA)

Well, I'm looking forward for the next event that will be held in November. Can't wait to help my friends. And I try to finish my costume in time. Cause one of my friend told me if possible, do it on this upcoming event. And my other friend said 'Don't worry, just do what is your interest. Not just cosplay and by helping them.' Cause I really love to help them alot. And I also love cosplaying.

Is like when you see them in costume already very interesting and happy. And by helping them is like a fun thing to me. I just can't explain that specific but it's like making myself more fun, exciting, enjoying, get to know a bit more specific about the character's character. Even though sometimes helping them is a bit tough sometimes, but it's worth it. See how the costume to be worn and to help them wear some props that they can't do themselves like wearing the wings and assemble some armors on them. But overall you see their hard work and your hard work. Sometimes without helpers is kind of hard for them to do it themselves.

Well, the 1st reason is meeting my friends of course. I'm helping them on the week ends and chat with them during the event. Is nice to help them and be with them because they are fun to interact with. Can't wait to joke with them during our next meet up or in the event.

2nd reason that I'm looking forward for AFA is the butler and maid cafe. The butlers are kind of cute, and some are handsome. And the maid is pretty. Even though there were some embarrassed times and mixed feeling in a cafe with my friends, but I will try to go. Cause there's 2 cafe that were serves by my friend due to some reasons. But this time is my second time going to a butler and maid cafe is served by some other butler and maid.

3rd reason is probably see the booths inside the event hall. Cause sometimes is like, in this event the booth owners sells this things and the next event they won't be coming or even when they come they will be selling some other stuffs. I know there's one booth is always selling the same things. The props that i'm referring. Well, I wonder this upcoming event what will the booths be selling.

I hope this upcoming event will be super fun. Can't wait to see my friends again to talk some rubbish and funny stuff during the event and visiting the cafe. And hope that there won't be another weird things happen in AFA.

It seems like I'm already very excited for AFA.

My friends cosplays

You know, I kind of liking a few of my friend's cosplays their cosplays is either quite handsome or pretty. You know, sometimes I just could be like them but I know this wouldn't happen.

But still, is nice to know them and they are fun to chat with even though we don't chat much during conventions. But what I wished the most is to hang out together again and have fun. I just miss the fun of hanging out with them.

Thanks to them I won't be that lonely anymore. If not I don't know what to do and no one to hang out during the event convention. And I wish that this fun will never end even though sometimes I'm quite emotional alone and wanting to leave them secretly but when ever I share to them, they will comfort me.

Birthdays.

Birthdays.... What is birthday? Why am I sad when my friend said he is celebrating his friend's birthday? I did some research in my memory. I would be frank.... No one celebrated my birthday except my parents which they have stopped celebrating my birthday after my secondary school. And kindergarden is so called celebrating with classmates and teachers.

Except them.... no one really celebrate my birthday exceopt for one of my secondary school friend who exchange our present for our advance birthday for secondary 3 or 4 I think. And the rest of my birthday is spending time in my room resting....

This year I guess this year I will be spending with myself at home inside my room during my birthday again. Cause I don't think this year my friends will be celebrating my birthday cause I feel that they are not that close to me.

I have been admiring people who got their friends celebrating birthdays with them while I am celebrating alone everytime at home.

What my thinking of my friendship with friends is, they treat me as a normal friend or a good friend. Close friend I don't think so. Cause close friends most of the time will ask you out around your birthday date.

I guess I'm pretty sensitive to this word already. Birthday means alone to me. When I'm alone, I tends to get abit emotional. This might make me cry during the night cause I rather get more emotional at night than day.

I guess I shouldn't had ask him a question which result me getting all worked out. I'm still quite sad and angry for myself due to some reasons.

I wish I could change myself permanently but I always ended up the old me, and I eventually gave up changing myself already. I'm not used to be talkative, fun person, out-going person and a cheerful me. Now I suppose to get myself stuck at home doing nothing already.

I hate myself again, trying to leave my friends behind cause I am not that important than their friends that they usually hang out with. I'm just a useless thrash to them compare to their friends.

I bought this upon myself so therefore I shall step back myself and vanish behind them while they have fun with their friends. So that they will forget my existance in this world. And I will be more happier to live on with myself. And I will not make any mistakes in my friendship with them anymore.

But still, I want to thanks them for passing my life. And I will make a move to leave first and not regretting anything I guess. I really have fun with you guys during the convention and outings. Hope you guys have fun.